I am “batching” it for the next eight days. What that means is that my “honey” is out of town. It certainly feels different when she is gone. I am not the same guy. I feel somewhat incomplete.
That doesn’t mean that I am not able to function; far from it. I am able to basic functions like… heating water! I can make a mean can of soup! Alright, I can do more than that. I can cook “anything” on the grill so I will survive. I know how to do my own laundry, wash dishes, and a variety of other household duties (I don’t clean toilets or dust but hopefully she will return before that is necessary.)
It also doesn’t mean that I am not a significant person without Mary. I am an OK guy who has gifts and abilities. I think I am actually a lot of fun, at least more fun than a rock (although, if the rock has some moss growing on it, well that might be a different matter.) I have deep feelings for others and have a great deal of compassion. I am a good friend.
It also doesn’t mean that I couldn’t live without her. I can’t imagine my life without her, to be sure! She lights up the room when she walks into it. She had added so much to my life. I could live but life wouldn’t be as rich or full. We have been together for nearly 29 years. She brings me joy! I know she is a gift from God to me!
There is a special word that describes my relationship with Mary. It is between the two extremes of overly dependent and totally independent. It is called “interdependency.” It is a healthy dependency that allows the two of us still to be two individuals. We are joined in a unique way; she often finishes my sentences. And yet, we have our own interests and passions. We are two different people who are growing and moving forward. Each day is a new day to discover more about each other.
We definitely need each other! And, I will definitely miss her! But, I will make it… at least for eight days. (Babe, hurry home!)